Resolved.

Kathleen asked me earlier this month what my New Year’s resolutions were. I didn’t answer her, because I just hadn’t decided yet.

I’m very particular about my resolutions for the New Year. They must meet the following three criteria:

1. There must not be too many of them. Ideally, there should be between one and two.
2. They must be flexible to account for my inconstant nature. BAD: “I’ll read my Bible every day.” (After about thirteen days, I will miss a day, and then I will not crack it open again for two months.) GOOD: “I’m going to read more Scripture.”
3. They must be really noble and courageous-sounding. Otherwise, what will people think of me?

I gave myself until the end of January to decide on my resolutions, and after much careful thought, here they are. Don’t expect me to update you all on how I’m doing… unless, of course, I’m rocking it, and then I will totally brag.

(In all seriousness, here they are: )

1. Stop letting what I FEEL like doing keep me from what I WANT to be doing. For example, I WANT to use the Rosetta Stone software (that I convinced Brian to let me buy) to learn Spanish, but darn it, I never FEEL like it. I never FEEL like having my devotions, but I desperately WANT to be closer to the Lord. I REALLY WANT to finish my beach dress in time for our Bahamas trip, but whenever I have time to work on it, I only FEEL like spending time on Facebook. I WANT to be in shape, but I eat whatever I FEEL like eating and never FEEL like working out. I could go on and on. I know this will be a lifelong pursuit – developing discipline, that is – but when I look at things with this perspective, I’m encouraged. And it’s a new year.

2. Stop complaining. There’s nothing for me to complain about. Anything. Ever. I may get all venti-ish on this blog, but truly, I am so blessed. And I’m hoping that by stemming the flow of complaints that streams out of my mouth, God will do the work inside to change the attitude of my heart.

These may be my only two resolutions for the rest of my life, because I don’t see myself perfecting either of them in 2010. But that’s okay. There’s always 2011, and since we may not be around to witness 2013, what does it matter anyway?