Friday, April 17, 2015

5 weeks 4 days

Dear Baby,

You are due on the same date as the little one we lost in 2013. On December 14, 2013, I was pregnant with Barrett and yet, that day, I also cried for the little one we'd never have, the little baby who would have been born that day. Could it be possible that, on December 14, 2015, I could be holding your brand-new little life?

It's taking great faith to believe that you are growing and developing as you should be. I believe that you're a little boy. It just feels so right to call you my little boy. While many ask if we'd like a girl this time, I can honestly say I'd be over the moon with a third healthy little boy.

I'll be heading down to see the midwife on May 11. That's 24 days away. I will be holding my breath until then, and yet I feel a strange confidence that, surely, I can't lose another December 14th baby. Will May 6 come and go without issue? These dates are sealed in my mind from when we lost our little one. And you could redeem them.

Your brothers are going to love you no matter who you are, little one. We have a lot of love in this family. There is a lot of it, just waiting for you.

Love, Mama

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